Posted on Thursday, April 15, 2010, at 2:15 AM
Crap...The only word i can think of that can describe my feelings now..
i dont know what's wrong with me..
I think i'm getting too lazy.. too dedicated to other stuff that should not even be thought of...
i need to refocus my attention!
damn this feeling...
These weeks... i have been thinking and asking people for lots of help..
though i might say that it doesnt help or didnt agree to it, it helps me.
I have learnt that i am thinking to much.. I am making my own life much more complicated than it should.
However, there are some stuff that i cant forget about it by just thinking of forgetting about it..
JUST AT THIS FREAKING TIME! I get A FREAKING CRUSH!
and i dont know love...
i hate the feeling that i want to talk to her and cant...
she was in a group of firmiliar people and i cant even go and talk to the firmiliar people there..
its as if she has an aura...
damn.. her voice is so attention grabbing..
her actions is so crazy.. its so hard to resist... its not even logical if you can ignore her!
HOW!? i want answers.. or at least her to talk to me...
i dont know.. i feel FUCKED UP!
argh! dont know why.. i just want to post it here.. even though i dont want people to see it..
I HATE THIS!
TESTS all coming up and i am still rotting!
This few days i am getting overly sensitive again.. taking all the bad comments and blaming everything on me!
FREAK! I WANT A BREAK!