White Land!

2010-11-10T05:02:00.000-08:00

my world is coming to an end I feel.
The endless not studying for subjects..
The running away from enemies and friends..
I somehow am trying to get away from my life and be alone..
Being an extrovert this ain't possible..
So now I am suffering deeply and no one pretty much cares..
After all I'm that person who started this gap.
So many things happened.. Everytime I know graduation is at the corner I get these flashbacks of that painful mistake I made. And I still can forget it.
Somehow due to that incident I sort of swore to myself never to get a bestfriend. For I might break another friendship.
But that has brought me loneliness, despair, a willless soul in making. I really appreciate friends I made in my primary school years. I feel that they are here to guide me to the correct path.. Even though they aren't beside me during my secondary school life, I think they still know me better.. After all, I became a different person when I got into secondary school..
I really want to talk to someone but there isnt anyone I dare to approach.
My hopes are running thin. O levels are ending which means I might have less time with my friends in secondary school. And yes they are less significant but they are still friends.
I really hate this promise I made, my mistake can't be forgotten even though the victim has forgiven me.
I am a righteous guy, I go by my own principles and through these years of constant moral and civil education, I believe I have the correct values.
However, DETERMINATION AND PERSERVERANCE are two of the hardest to use. How can perservere to be determined when I have been insulted and brought down when I get a drive. My ears aren't sharp but sometimes my ears just become super sensitive and when words like 'retarded' 'useless' come in, it really makes an imapct. I might be the most sensitive guy out there but I don't show it.. If only I had a soulmate. It would be perfect.

2010-08-07T09:27:00.000-07:00

HELLO!

ERM. HI! BONJOUR!

KONINCHIWA!

ANA HA SAE YO!

I AM FREAKING BORED!

EL ORAL IS THIS FRI!

5 MORE DAYS!

ERM.. HAVING ULCERS..

ERM... kinda have stuff to say and kinda dont have stuff to say..

cant think straight... ≠ GAY OKAY!

BYE?

2010-06-04T09:39:00.000-07:00

I am back!

Seems like my previous post stirred up quite a matter..

this makes me conclude that RELATIONSHIPS makes everyone curious!

well.. as you can see from the date.. it has been a long time.

anyways. i have not talked to that person just to be safe.. so we barely talk to each other alr..

after Chinese O's...

was the start of the HOLIDAY REMEDIAL CLASSES. At first it was quite easy-going..

everything was as per normal.. untill..

one by one.. teachers come and ask.. 'so what are you going to do for (subject) this holiday? don't just focus on this ah! you must also do others!'

first, you ask me to do that subject then ask me to do others! RELAX! you are that subject teacher! not the other subject teacher!

so much unwanted stress..

theres like so many stuff to do... but so little time left..

theres practically 2 months left.

i have Phy TYS, Chem TYS, 2x E Maths Booklet, 2x A maths Booklet, Geog TYS, SS TYS..

HELLO!!! 2 months leh! what the hell.. so many stuff to do..

i want to go out..

i miss my friends.

i want to play!

AIYAH!

2010-05-15T10:34:00.000-07:00

I forgot who asked me that question but..

anyways.. the question was 'who is my best friend'

to me.. I dont think i have best friends..

I have friends, but no BEST friend..

Its too hard to choose who should be my best friend.

Its too subjective. there isnt a point to pick one who you think is a better friend..

What do best friends do anyway?

the same as what normal friends would do right?

so what's the point about asking if i have best friends when i treat them equally?

I choose my friends. So in order for one to be my friend, he/she has already passed the stage of 'normal passer-by'

that could mean that you are my best friend. but that also means every friend of mine is my best friend.

Another thing. Someone said my life is boring?

haha.. yes.. its boring.. but theres nothing i rather do.

you ask me to study? GO DIE LAH!

haha.. i do what i want.

also... a few days ago.. i received news that theres someone that likes me?

well. i dont know.. i feel that too.. all of a sudden, she is like so close to me..

But.. She isnt the one i want...

RELATIONSHIPS SUCKS!

2010-04-27T06:39:00.000-07:00

I dont know whether to call it GREAT news or not..

but.. i start to lose feelings for her...

i have not been thinking about her these few days..

its that a good thing? i dunno but i seem to be thinking about someone else..

jeez.. maybe i waited too long.. my mind just changed target?

i dont know..

damn. my blog is an emo blog.. :(

2010-04-15T02:15:00.000-07:00

Crap...

The only word i can think of that can describe my feelings now..

i dont know what's wrong with me..

I think i'm getting too lazy.. too dedicated to other stuff that should not even be thought of...

i need to refocus my attention!

damn this feeling...

These weeks... i have been thinking and asking people for lots of help..

though i might say that it doesnt help or didnt agree to it, it helps me.

I have learnt that i am thinking to much.. I am making my own life much more complicated than it should.

However, there are some stuff that i cant forget about it by just thinking of forgetting about it..

JUST AT THIS FREAKING TIME! I get A FREAKING CRUSH!

and i dont know love...

i hate the feeling that i want to talk to her and cant...

she was in a group of firmiliar people and i cant even go and talk to the firmiliar people there..

its as if she has an aura...

damn.. her voice is so attention grabbing..

her actions is so crazy.. its so hard to resist... its not even logical if you can ignore her!

HOW!? i want answers.. or at least her to talk to me...

i dont know.. i feel FUCKED UP!

argh! dont know why.. i just want to post it here.. even though i dont want people to see it..

I HATE THIS!

TESTS all coming up and i am still rotting!

This few days i am getting overly sensitive again.. taking all the bad comments and blaming everything on me!

FREAK! I WANT A BREAK!

2010-04-02T22:26:00.000-07:00

THIS FEELING SUCKS!

whats the point of thinking of something over and over again when i dont even take any action!?

i need someone to tell me what to do!

tell me what can i do.. what i should do..

MAKE ME DO THE RIGHT THING!

so many factors..

where's my BEST FRIENDs....

FUCK THIS!

2010-03-13T08:59:00.000-08:00

After attending Adam Khoo's workshop, i have learnt to look at things from a different perspective. The positive side that is.

Life used to be great.. Then, after the workshop, it became awesome.

Knowing that i was a person whom was filled with high self esteem and confidence. Given the special ability to entertain small crowds.

However, i feel really stressed out today. Today was my 2nd emcee experience. The first didn't go well.. Everyone in my class would say, "eh jeric! what you say just now? Very mumbled leh!" That really affected my confidence and self esteem.

However, I began to gain courage and learn from my mistakes. And thus, i was able to regain my lost confidence.

Thus, already known that the first time is always full of mistakes, everyone would think that Jeric being the campfire's emcee would not be a bad decision.

However, I being Jeric is not that kind of person at all times right?

Today, i felt that i have screwed up. The campfire had 5 emcees. And I was the Overall In Charge for the emcees. And so... being the OIC.. its really stressful..

Just think about it.. without you... there wont be an emcee and then there is always someone expecting that you know the stuff you are required to know when its your first time....

I mean.. Me.. A person that rarely goes to campfires and hardly enjoys it, becoming the campfire emcee.. Don't you think that theres something wrong? I know that in reality you will not be given choices and have to do with whatever is provided. But I dont really care cause there are other people who can be it!

I dont care if you want to give me a chance or what.. Somethings just cant be forced. When i dont want to become the emcee for the campfire, I mean it..

Now, look what have i done. Caused a cock up during today's campfire.. Other people might not feel anything.. But i felt like i was a let down.. The scouts have given me a choice to represent them in such a event which is native to us scouts..

Me, not being able to sing some of the songs, made me feel inferior.. I wanted things to be well planned and organised.. Everything to go smooth and well, but sometimes there are some complications. Like me, just a few hours before the campfire, i was told of some rubrics we have to follow to grab the attention of the audience.

Perhaps, I feel socialising isnt a really good thing for me.. Just saying the standard lines has caused people to feel irritated by me.. What kind of verbal entertainer can I be? A clown? I will do my best to entertain my friends, they are whom i am able to cherish.

Today was a fucked up day.. This day would be hard to forget.. I have no idea why.. but i can only pick up all the bad points I have.. Like irritating voice, small guts, useless mentality.. With all these factors in my mind, I have seriously lost a lot of my confidence in myself... There isnt anything that i should feel good about today... I even ran round the school for nothing!

Just before I end this, I really appreciate some people helping me through this period of time. even though it has not pass...

2009-10-26T04:49:00.000-07:00

Disclaimer: This post is solely based on MY feelings. No offence to whoever is mentioned.

anyways... where do i start?
oh ok..
lets go to Ambition.
today i thought that i was a little too ambitious for myself.
yesterday..
my father and my brother quarreled over the dates for RTC and my Korea trip..
well... i was fed up with them quarreling.. so i shouted at the dinner table..
i said 'okok! can we leave!?'
then. i was thinking.. why must my brother quarrel over such things..
why must he be so proud? why must he have to 'die die must win' attitude..
my father is already so old.. cant you lay off the fighting?
cant you let him live without much burden!?
you are adding more stress to him! and he is so old..
+ he needs people to support him now.
why cant you all care about him!?
argh..
next..
well. this few days.. i have been going for scouts and such..
then during the quarreling.. my brother said 'whats the point in putting so much effort in CCAs?'
i thought about it.. though i thought about this before..
he then said 'CCA only.. now you are so busy with your CCA.. next time you will regret!'
i thought..
really? would i regret?
scouts. a cca i hated..
but its not an ordinary CCA..
its a brotherhood kind of thing..
i like it somehow.. and i hate it a lot..
its kind of like a mix?
anyways..
these few days, we had to do a lot of stuff..
Open house, RTC, Hike.
well.. it may seem like nothing..
but those are quite HUGE events..
these things are make or break for my scout unit..
but i find that... DID I PUT IN MY EFFORT?
of course.. i did the paperwork.. i liked doing it... cause i dont want them to have a cock-up during important stuff..
i just find that... there's just a point where i cant really accept scouts.
argh.. i dont know..
next.. this is quite personal..
lately i feel that i am not sure of my sexuality.. I have these imaginations...
its so desirable.. but i dont know whether is it normal..
erm.. before you go on.. please dont talk to me about this in school..
its rather embarrassing..
saturday. ms noraini said to me.. I have to get a life.. i need a girlfriend.
well... i dont know about that.. whats this girlfriend buisness?
i dont get it... i think i am too young.. and unexperienced..
i cant handle responsibility.. in fact i HATE that..
i think i just need time to re-think my thinking..
ALL I NEED IS A CRUISE by myself..
just relax... cant really do that in Singapore.. there's just too much people..
next.
i would like to review the year's performance.
well.. firstly..
results.
English - C5
Chinese - C5
E Maths - A2
A Maths - F9
Physics - B3
Chemistry - B4
Combi Humans - C5

well... i think you know it isnt really good..
its horrible...
and F9! this is my first F9 in my life...
Was i expecting that?
of course not..
anyways..
i have nothing to talk about that now..
i was actually thinking..
its already the end of my secondary 3 life..
3/4 of my secondary school life...
people said that secondary school life is the most fun period of your life..
like a milestone i guess?
but..
I dont think so.. Well.. apart from cycling which is not even part of school life..
nothing really makes me in the FUN... if you know what i mean...
I regretted my PSLE results if you guys have not known..
i want to make a comeback in my 'o' levels..
Mr Fahmy got 2 points for his L1R5.. which is the lowest i could get... as in including the bonus points..
if i got that.. and i made it to VJC..
the world would lighten up like an LED lamp..
faster than all lamps...
Why?
its something to do with my goals.. i presume.. i dont really know..
anyways..
i really feel left out.. as in deep inside.. still.. no one really knows me..
including me.. i am doubting myself..
i didnt plan to make jokes.. i just had to..
its second nature... but why do i do that?
it hurts people..
argh.. i feel that i am really trying to do my best to turn the world a better place..
I wished that EARTH would be healthy.. no global warming and etc...
i wished world peace... no riots.. all happiness..
i wished equality.. i dont want things with 2 points of views..
i wished for hope. HOPE my people... is one of the most easiest abundance we can forget..
there is hope. for you. and for me.
but how do we get there?
that is your challenge.
i tried my best to say whatever i wanted to say.. but if i didnt..
you can always.. msn me... or whatever communication ways to connect me..
Bye.

2009-09-28T05:11:00.000-07:00

blogger is working!!
ok.. anyways.. some people have been reading my blog!
i was like embarrassed to say anything.. cause yea..
anyways..
now its getting better.. though not really talking a lot still but still someone is talking to me..
today received news that my YCMC proposal didnt go well..
Mr Lai didn't approve it and now we are just doing a pettiful donation drive?
i mean what the heck? such a great ambition and i wanted it to work perfectly..
and just because the venue was disapproved.. we couldn't do it..
anyways. we are small teenagers.. inexperienced..
frankly speaking.. we even have an inexperienced mentor..
EOYs are coming soon yea?
i dont know why.. but i keep thinking that i know everything..
but.. if you test me Chem.. especially those questions that aims at those small tiny details..
i am a goner..
oh ya! my com is now running on Windows 7..
Seriously it sucks? cause my com doesnt support it.. no sounds coming out...
I WANT MY MACBOOK PRO!!
ambitions.
dedications.
goals?
what's up?
i dont know.. well..
Bye.

2009-09-10T07:34:00.001-07:00

I am here to post.

What do post?

I seriously don’t know… How about the holidays? ok. so… this week..

What have i been doing?

As what i can see… all my friends particularly my sec sch friends have their commitments.. CCAs… remedials.. etc…

but why am I so “leftout”… I feel that i am always an outcast now.. I have not been talking to anyone for the past few days except to my bro..

but thats different.. I need a form of entertainment.. but games doesn’t help me.

Anyways… This holiday. I have been cycling everyday… To dinner, lunch, breakfast…

its such a bore i feel.. however.. i learnt a new bike skill.. Its a wheelie!

I am still practicing to perfect it.

Now back to being ‘leftout’.. i realised if i don’t speak for a few days.. my voice deepens.. i feel sad… outcasted…. i want somebody to talk to..

and yea… I WANT IT BADLY… i even went to chatrooms! but they were flooded with sex messages… eg. HORNY NOW! CALL ME **** ****

i was like… hmmm.. wrong website..

the more time i spend at home… the more vulnerable i am to finding stuff for me to get hooked on..

For example.. A Full sus bike… A better computer… A dSLR…

Materialism… Materialism… Materialism.. when would you ever stop..

jeez.. i really want to talk to someone..

i am too bored and lonely..

I think when i grow up to the adult world.. i need a job like an entertainer or a sales promoter.. those jobs that requires blabbering about.. talking cock..

I feel pathetic..

Bye.

2009-09-06T21:17:00.001-07:00

Just went swimming just now…

its been a long time since i went swimming… I swam 10 laps of 50m..

went down at 10 and came back at 10.45…

anyways.. big stuffs happening…

On saturday… I was chased by a wild dog!

i was cycling past it at 19kmh then i was staring at it…

suddenly it sprinted towards me… i was shocked!

but i still managed to pedal fast enough..

it was just at my ankle!

it gave up when i reached 35kmh…

Then on Friday.

when i was going home on Bus 30…

i saw a wallet and picked it up and asked whose is it…

then i gave it back… See!? Good samaritan!

then later when i went to cycle…

i met someone that locked her belongings in her car…

and she asked me for money to go home…

i said ok and i was willing to give her $4 but she refused… cause she wanted $10…

WEIRD!?? then she showed me her car…

a BMW 5 series! How the heck do you lock a BMW with its key inside!???

German engineering isnt so low tech! i wont get cheated…

Sadly… i didnt help… haha...!

Erm… I don’t know what else to say…

So…

Bye!

2009-08-27T05:08:00.001-07:00

I think for the next few posts… There will not be lots of colours…

ok anyways.. today i got back my Geog CMT…

i scored 4/20 … Previously.. I was going around asking desperately for the answer…

Was it Country B or Country D?

so… i chose B.. but the answer that came out was D.

2nd question was reading of the triangular graph… I got 0.

Then i had to explain why different groups of countries have different characteristics.. i got 2.

Then the last question was on leadership in Singapore. I got 1 tick but 0 marks.

So total.. 4/20.

I was completely stunned by that fact. Though I may have looked so high when i was ‘boasting’ the marks i obtained..

4/20… Even Haikal Chong [No offence] who usually fails.. got 10/20! Even Leonard got 7/20!

So then i went round asking if they’d believe that i got 4/20…

Majority of them said ‘NO… Don’t bluff la! What happened?’

All i could say is ‘Really… I never bluff you…’

Now… looking back… I am so sorry my friends… I am so sorry my pride… i am so sorry my dignity..

i have let you down… Give me a chance.. I need it.

soon i would be getting my Physics and Chemistry and SS…

All i hope is then i don’t disappoint you guys again..

What’s wrong with me? I don’t know.. Maybe it’s stress? peer pressure? jealousy? Puberty? what is it?

Seriously, i don’t know..

I find it hard to self-reflect in assignments cause.. I simply DON’T…

At times i feel… What’s the point… just play! just go! just do it!

thinking it over again won’t help… Sometimes.. this theory helps a lot…

A happy go lucky person lives life happily doesn’t he?

Can you call me a happy go lucky person?

I don’t think so… Tag to give me an answer?

Bye. Once again I am sorry.

2009-08-24T06:13:00.001-07:00

Hello! People people people..

I am here! Back in action you would say..

but i am here!

So.. what to blog about?

First. i am blogging cause i am supposed to cause of Joey Lai…

anyways.. Newest news first?

Today i just got back my E Maths paper… I got 38/40! A1…

but i don’t get the point.. 30/40 also A1… so why get such a high mark?

Well actually i found out.. it was because you total all the marks.. it would boost your final score..

now… yesterday.. i got a new iPhone 3G!! woa!!

anyways.. my wifi chip was spoilt la..

then i got a new one instantly..

hmm.. then? erm…

Sat Night

I went cycling.. asked Richard, my pri sch friend… he said cannot.. asked my cousin he said can but have to wait for his parents..

in the end i waited till 9+? then i decided to cycle alone..

so.. YEA…. ALONE…

then… did I tell you that i want a Full-suspension Chumba or Santa Cruz bike? really badly?

yea… must repost that under the wishlist…

ok. some of you might have heard that i got a new Macbook Pro from the Singtel promotion thingie?

well.. my bro said that he wanted to use it for a week so i was thinking… ‘one week… then its all mine!’

so i agreed…

then after 2 weeks already…

he had bought a casing for the macbook pro and protectors and now he is using it in front of me!!

and he had not spoken about the 1 week thing..

argh!! what i thought was mine is not…

++++ he does not need such a good lappy… all he does is bring it to school and open and close files.. then he would skype his girlfriend and stuff…

IDIOT!! give it to someone that need it more!

he already has a desktop computer with an i7 processor and 600GB hard drive and 6GB ram?

i only have 1 GB ram 60GB hard drive… Beat that?

Dream on! HOMO!

So.. erm.. now?

well… CMT?

Chem – Screwed it..

Phy – Oh please… SCREWED

E Maths – 38/40 :)

A Maths – ok i think

Geog – Country B!!

SS – Relevant?

still got?

Anyways.. talk about the Macbook angry already..

No Mood la!

Bye..

2009-07-13T03:04:00.000-07:00

Obsession? Passion? Addiction?
Which one applies to me?
I think Passion is the word.
First of.
This is not my bike.
Cost Price of this beauty is $5,595.
yes... it costs the same as 3~4 Macbook Pros but it lasts twice as longer
and provides much more fun.
you would ask, what do you like the most then?
of course there are some stuff that i specially adore in the package.
That would be the FOX Fork and Shocks
never before in my life had i experienced something that phenomenal.
Ever heard of the Citroen DS? (A Magnificent car that has hydraulic suspension and provides maximum comfort)
that is what it feels like in the Cannondale.
At this point, you might feel...
Jeric, you are just materialistic... It costs a bomb.. thats why you fancy it!
even though i dont really want to admit it... but its true.
however, in the biking world... Good parts come at a price.
A decent standard bike like my GT AVALANCHE 3.0 Disc costs me $1800 already and i am not even slightly done with it.
In the biking world there are many categories to fall into.
Like in cars, there are comfort, sport, race.
In bikes.. we have comfort, road, downhill, mountain, trails, freeride and adventure.
I am more of adventure.
Mountain biking has opened up a door for me to explore.
Exploration never ends. Fun never ends. When this 2 things come together.
There is joy.
After so many months of riding, i have seen many kinds of bikes.
Most of them are rentals and others are blinging fantastic bikes. those with chrome and catch the crowd's eye.
I am really very envious about those bikes.. cause i know mine looks far more simpler..
Which makes me come to my next topic.
Upgrading!
My GT... So far has not gotten much 'bling'...
Only seasoned riders would understand the 'bling' like my XT Hydraulics
Now i want to 'bling' the crowd!
My plan is to repaint the whole bike.
Before this, I wanted my bike to have a Yellow/Black colour scheme..
But nah... its turning to be 'yellow yellow dirty fellow' now..
thus the new colour scheme shall then be...
Undecided...
I wanted White/Black/Orange (Higher % -> Lower % )
but thought that it might not work out...
so... i am still considering.. while doing that... i am researching online for such colour schemes.
Bye.

2009-06-12T05:48:00.000-07:00

well peeps... i am back..
first of. i am starting with... colour! i got a comment that there is too many colours in my posts...
so... now i am sticking to a few colours...
anyways... lets start.
i am going by order by the events on my iPhone..
so..
CAMP POWER UP 2009 (29/5~1/6)
this was my first time helping out in Tao Nan's P4 level camp...
so... first day.
i was told to reach there by 9pm...
it was already 8pm when i started packing... so i knew that i wouldnt have time to take a bus..
so i took a taxi.
$5.90....
so i reached there about 8.50+?
everyone was gathering at the foyer B's study area
so i followed the majority..
then looked around and saw that most of them are from VJC and have a clique..
while i am alone and lost... i didnt even know what i was there for..
thankfully some guy from VJC... named wai yong?
approached me and said 'hi' and blabber on...
though i was like so nervous... and cant really communicate well..
so the main topic we were blabbering about was scouts... oh well... ahem..
then next we were brought to our sleeping room, 5B.
then go in 5E for a briefing.. IT WAS THE MOST BORING BRIEFING EVER!
then now was actually FREE TIME FOR ME! cause i was the station master..
in short SM!
then it was sleep...
DAY 2. (29/5/09)
woke up and brushed up...
only 'pal' or 'buddy' was wai yong...
so we were 'clique-ed'
we didnt have anything to do till 7.45am actually..
so we slacked and walked around the school... and breakfast of course...
then later i found out that i was going to West Coast Park to be a SM!
i was assigned station 3!
Details.
Objective : Go from point 1 to 14 as a group.
P4 kids... they dont really get the idea of holding hands..
so yea.. hectic day... but was one of my best performance.
well... SUN BURNT for short..
this might be confusing...
my best performance as in sociable or... 'high'
then sun burnt was hectic day under the blazing sun..
so well.. LUNCH WAS MAC!
woohoo! best 'job' in the whole camp community.
but this wasnt the day that left me the greatest impression.
After that, when we reach back Tao Nan..
was nothing... then me and wai yong went roaming around..
then brushed down... haha..
and slept.
Day 3.
today was the best day so far..
woke up and brushed up.. then reached WCP.
over there... we improvised all our games to make it easier..
cause of that blazing heat.. we want to slack a little..
of course lunch was MACs..
the highlight of the day to me was...
'M is for Megaman, Megaman'
'M is for Megaman, Megaman' with claps
M is for Megaman, Megaman' with claps and stomps on the ground.
haha! go Megaman!
well.. i dont really want to get into the emotional sections of this.. so..
yea.. that was pretty much it.
Day 4..
Clean up and de-brief and home!
Bye.

2009-05-28T06:07:00.000-07:00

Well... Just went cycling and met Hong Yuan and Yi Feng and co.
that reminded me of the primary school days....
Remember in P6 there was a threaten for murder...
haiz... dont talk about that la...
anyways.. the main purpose of this posts was to post about cruise.
so.. 22 May 2009
I gotten my results and it sucked.. was thinking that i could forget all about it in the cruise..
so anyways... checked in all the boring stuff..
just a little let down by the fact that i wouldnt be staying in balcony class.
cause i would rather sit alone in the cabin then outside where people like INDIANS roam...
ok.. then Dinner was especially crowded...
normally i would eat at the Bella or Pavillion but not this time..
it was the worst! Buffet...
Then, i realised that there was something wrong.
the services that the cruise staff are providing are downgrading...
for example, there was a sign saying ' please do not take extra serviettes. They are not for take-away'
this pains me... my beloved cruise ship is being downgraded by Singaporeans!
++ i can tell that the working attitude of the staff is getting lousier too...
No! its not the cruise staff's fault! its again Singaporeans.
Sorry, i have to say that it is those 'tai-tai' that only go there for free food and gambling.
And so... continuing on...
I was supposed to meet Wayne.. but he was following his bro and his bro's friends..
so i dont want to follow him.. i mean all of them are like 19~22?
then i went roaming.. from arcade to lobby to blue lagoon to Lido..
then finally i saw someone familiar in a distance.
I walked closer... noticed it was JC with more hair!
lol.... he was with Marcus [only knew his name later], mewton's bro.
so they were being materialistic and talking about presentation...
i was bored and aint really in the mood to talk crap so i kept quiet while they talked...
then we went roaming together...
reached Galaxy of stars... Leo was there.
so... was there till supper start..
JC and Marcus went to somewhere...
while i stayed and talked to Leo..
Can tell that he is troubled with something... his shows arent as hyped up...
or might be because of the crowd or the late night hours..
after that, i went to the buffet to eat supper.
after that, i went to the sun tanning beds on the top and realised i was on SingTel.
so i was sms-ing and using the internet...[3G i mean, not WiFi]
then asked people to call to entertain me... but no one called...
ok.. then i went to sleep.
END OF 22 May 2009
Actual intention was to wake up at 8 to eat Breakfast.
but i woke up at 10+....
there wasnt any breakfast so yea... was roaming again...
then i went arcade... though i didnt want to... spent $10
ok then was lunch. had it with my parents at Bella.
Ate Chinese. i can say that it isnt that bad... but theres still room for improvements.
After that. went roaming again...
suddenly 3 girls approached me and 1 said...
'hey, do you want to play hide and seek?'
i was stunned so i stared at them while i walk past...
'Not now...' I said...
so they went off gigling at that girl...
anyways... continued roaming...
i was hoping to find JC... but gave up... so i went to look for the girls.
this was also the first time that i was asked to play hide and seek...
so i couldnt really let this oppurtunity go right?
cause i would normally be the one asking desperately..
so finally i found 1/3 girls...
so we met up and they introduced themselves. but i didnt say anything..
they splurged the rules and etc...
so i was suppose to hide.. i hid... and felt bored so i walked out..
then round 2..
was the same... felt bored and walked out...
then round 3...
Marcus came... what a coincidence..
so.. we played...
then felt bored and sat around...
they brought cards.. so we played...
spent the whole 1~4pm like that...
they played super duper lame games... like spoons? which can change to straws and ships...
haha...
then i went blue lagoon for sandwiches...
i didnt say anything.. but marcus just ate all the fries... I DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING!
so... before i can eat finish everyone left me...
so i was alone to roam again...
then i was bored of seeing people..
so i went back to cabin and watch tv.
then i went to bathe for dinner.
saw JC and went to eat together... finally..
then... i went to Galaxy of stars... [JC's favourite destination.. besides the casino..]
and tried a new drink. SS Smoothie.. its a splurge of flavours... i am too uneducated to describe it..
so.. anyways..
went to HUANG PING YUAN's show..
was seriously average... the best is still Jacky Wu followed by Gary Cao Ge then OCEAN
after that met JC and Marcus at DFS.
looking at perfumes and etc... now i know what to buy alr! the fragrances are so nice...
and they are about 1% cheaper than SG!
lol.. really want a perfume... but its useless..
look at me... so ugly..
so then... met a new friend.. Suxanne
whe was the staff at DFS.
then the girls were loitering at the lobby... [had to say loitering...]
so Marcus got the privelage of asking them to meet up later at night.
so i followed JC and Co. everywhere...
then it was the time...
the meeting of the girls...
well...
introduction!
Prashanti
The girl with the biggest mouth
Very outspoken
Alycia
Small-sized like Elysia... haha..
Joymarie
Funny Name..
i aint good at describing.. so..
they were picking a drink..
then bla bla bla...
all the bullshit talk and lame stuff..
i decided to bring them around after telling them ghost stories...
so i brought them to unknown territories...
while they scream 'argh.. lets go! i will meet you guys here, ok?'
haiz...
then gave them a treat.
cant reveal too much info...
i will get "fined"
so... ate supper,etc...
END OF 23May 2009
Woke up at 10 again...
normally we would leave the ship at 12.30?
but this time we left at 11...
so early..
then erm... went home and went Downtown East..
Maybe its because i slept late last night..
there were thousands of people... i got a mild headache
then i watched Night at the Museum 2!
no info will be released cause i am rushing for time!
argh!
i am having a camp at Tao Nan School tomorrow to 1 June..
then i would have to rush home, get changed, re pack my 'luggage' and go to geyland to buy satay.. then go to the class chalet...
then i would be staying over... missing my tuition... though i really want to go for it..
i have always wanted to use this but never got the chance... but i also dont know the meaning of these also..
so.. here goes nothing..
Therefore, on a bombshell
Bye!

Retirement

2009-05-20T03:10:00.000-07:00

Jeric Tan. The Epitome Of Failure.

Useless

Stupid

Dumb... Whatever it is... as long as its negative... thats me.

A HUGE FAILURE.

2009-05-10T07:54:00.000-07:00

Well.. I am only going to post one of the videos..

cause it is taking too long to upload one..

F.Y.I the video is taken using my iPhone...

Seems that my iPhone is better at videos than still shots..

haha...

Okay.. My English, Chinese, Geography and E Maths Paper 1 MYE is over..

Next up would be Chemistry... which is tuesday...

Anyways.. Friday.

After Geography i headed home...

got on the bus with Wilson Chong.. Then i saw my classmates walking out..

Forgotten they were going out to eat..

argh...

Then headed home. Came back and on the com and played xbox..

then i went cycling... to CV and Back..

hmm... nothing much i guess..

Then.

went to Brighthill Temple for bathe prince Siddhartha.

was there at 11.20 pm

offered some incense and then queued for the bathe..

then i was thinking. [DUE TO TOO MUCH BOREDOM]

I looked on the floor... and counted that there were 12 petals in the lotus!

Then i realised that everything is even..

Nothing is odd..

OH! BTW... i always thought that brighthill temple was the direct translation from chinese?

but it wasn't brighthill temple is the real name!

then i actually went to pray..

"Can i get a Macbook Pro This Year?"

haha.. oops? it slipped out..

Saturday.

woke up and ate breakfast...

came back at 3PM...

studied for CHEMISTRY!

till 4.30

only studied 2 chapters...

experimental chemistry or something?

then played xbox... seriously had no mood..

then all the way till i sleep.

Sunday!

woke up ate my favourite mee pok!

then came home and take my bag then head off to Jiang..

a teacher under training taught us...

it was the most boring jiang lesson i have been in...

then after that went to ENG department to talk...

ok then i went to book point and buy Chemistry 10-Year series!

so lame.. so hyped about Chem.. later also C5...

have you ever heard of the Constant Grade Disease?

yea.. i am suffering from that...

Chem -

2007 - B4

2008 - B4

2009 - Term 1 was C5

Phy

2007 - B4

2008 - B4

2009 - Term 1 was C5~6

haiz...

going to study more chem tomorrow and do up 30 qns for every chapter tested in the 10-Year series..

i created a "Do you know Jeric?" test on facebook..

so far no one scored 100% cause of some wrong ans....

but the highest ranking was by my friend that isnt from my school..

haha! see? good friends..

argh.. my urge for Apple Products is increasing!

First an iPhone...

Second? A Macbook Pro

Third?

ARGH!!! JUST WISH SOMEONE COULD GIVE ONE TO ME!!!!

so now.. i am trying to get into a video guy mood now...

to get a Macbook, one must have interest in video editing and make it a hobby

But.. i am more of natural beaty shots... Video is a little too motion?

but also.. i want a Sony HD camcorder!

argh! i am becoming too materialistic...

I wont accept a Olympus or even a HP or even a VAIO

all i want is a Macbook Pro or a Nikon D90 or a Sony HD Camcorder..

then i can become a nature addict and stay in the woods... taking photos and videos of nature...

though i hate nature for those irritating insects but they are just so beautiful!

Anyone likes this kind of post?

cause if not.. i will go back to those reflection type..

Bye!

2009-04-20T04:49:00.000-07:00

so... an update on me life.

Well.. i dont really like blogging now of days...

Facebook is just too convenient and cool!

but.. anyways..

i want to say something High and Fun! but somehow there is some contradictions..

well... now the Mid-Year Exams are coming.. i aint going to have a carefree lifestyle soon...

Today.. in Eng class, Mdm Cheah said something that is really true.

Boys vent their anger by sweating it all out while girls just gorge on food...

i agree with this.. cause i am guilty of that.

Cycling is my passion but what is the factor i enjoy about cycling is unknown..

i Seriously, honestly dont know.. but maybe most likely is the fact that i am relaxed.

This week, i didnt go cycling so maybe thats why i feel so hot tempered..

then again.. nobody can tell i am hot tempered...

i get easily irritated and annoyed...

anyways back to the topic...

today was an example too.. before i came home, on the bus...

i told myself to revise Chem, study Phy then Geog... but..

when i came home.. i did in fact revise Chem but whatever i studied for Phy, Geog...

it cant go in my mind..

but... wait! something is coming out!

oh...

re-alignment is the straightening of the river. removing meanders and shorten the course of the river.

re-sectioning is the widening and deepening of the river. it increases the capacity to store water and decreases the rate of erosion.

Bank protection is man made levees or dykes built to control the rate of erosion on the riverbanks.

or something...

then P=F/A

P=H O G + Patm

D=M/V

thats all..

so...

Bye.

2009-04-06T03:46:00.000-07:00

okay.. I am going to update you guys about my life..

this few days... in fact these 2 days...

theres some conflict going on here and there

and i am the poor victim...

It all started during 1/4/09... April Fool's Day...

One of the girls in that group said to me "Jeric, I like you"

I was like "OK..." and left them...

then during recess, girl no. 2 [lets call her G2] came to me and said "Jeric, I like you.. Can we stead?"

I was again like "OK..." and continue eating my recess...

Then she became so obnoxious and kept asking "would you accept me?"

So i was again like "OK..."

then ALL girls in that group all say "jeric, you are so bad... People confess their feelings to you and you reject her..."

Then i was again... "OK..."

soon... the whole 3C got to know about this news..

In realty I have never believed that relationships work in Secondary School...

Though it is one of the most exciting process [for boys]

I think that the relationship wont last... And i would like to emphasize I HAVE NO TIME!

If i have spare time.. I can go cycling! Ride my baby... Thats all!

Thats the kind of life i want. Carefree... Freedom... Passion...

Not talk.. Control... Feel... Or even look...

I believe that when the time comes... There will be this connection i would be able to feel...

but not to G2... In this world, NO ONE knows who am i inside out. No One Except ME..

I cant tell people my feelings... thats why i am so... well.. i dont know...

And to me.. in a relationship, there should be trust.

But who can trust me? i am a big fat liar, huge loser, sacarstic guy..

No one will be able to trust me...

not to say my looks..

no one will ever look at me and say "wah... he's so cute!"

You know?

With me.. Nothing good will happen.. No Happiness... No Peace... No Break...

Take A Wise Choice. Pick Someone Else.

Today.. I have posted in such a pessimistic way...

this little memories will be stored in this little website... With My past and all.

My Blog is not a place to see what's happening in my life but for me to express all this TRUE feelings..

Just Want To Be Alone.

Bye...

2009-03-17T06:34:00.000-07:00

Oh my.... This is the 11th post of the year...

Haven't been updating this blog for quite a long time...

Anyway... Today.

Woke up at 10am... then went to Parkway Parade to eat breakfast and buy groceries...

then came back home...

Actual plan was to go Kent Ridge Park...

But I couldn't predict the weather so in the end went ECP > CV > ECP

ok... so?

erm... Good news!

I finally have a Blazer!!!

Sadly.... it is in black... it would look kind of formal if i wear it...

so its a formal apparel...

I would love a white one...

As you know... Last year was dull and black, this year is White!

Now... My thoughts on the KOREF camp.

Okay... First Day

When we set off to KOREF, I was so called "Tour Guide" i would say...

Anyways, it was a 2 hour ride from Second Link Checkpoint to Kahang Eco Farm.

I gave 3C an hour to sleep and then an hour to go through the class' cheer and campfire song.

I requested quite a number of rehersals... so sorry...

Just wanted it to be perfect.

Before the camp... Han Rou , Elysia and I spent don't know how many hours thinking of the

cheers and campfire activity.

Initial plan for the campfire activity was to have a dance cum skit.

But then this needs lots of practice and rehersals.

But no one confirmed this idea so I did not have time to arrange a rehersal.

so...

I thought of singing the CAMPFIRE SONG SONG!

haha... Its a classic and that it was the easiest...

In the end... I was nominated the best camper award!

haha... anyways... the camp in general sucks!

however, the "hatred" was simmered when fun teachers followed us like Mrs Yong and Fahmy

haha... Still can remember the smell of KOREF and the wet tents... Millipedes, Leeches, Centipedes... eeww!

Now in the comfort of my comfy sofa and my laptop...

cannot be compared to the situation at KOREF.

Now... JOB WEEK CAMP.

okay... first day... Est. 6.40am arrived at school..

LATE... haha supposed to be 6.30 but miraculously i didn't get punished..

then it was investiture.. I was APL of woodpecker [temporary] but i felt like a real one.

then was finally job week. Headed to Telok Kurau as always..

Hansel paid the taxi fare.

After a day's work, headed back to school just to get punished all over then had to seperate

$400+ among 6 people then was scolded for doing that.. cause its not right...

then sleepover was surprisingly comfortable!

except the waking up part... Freezing!

then Day 2 at telok kurau.. went back and seperate funds again...

in the end ended at 4pm missed my tuition...

now... i have homework to do...

Do up biography...

Geography presentation

Social Studies presentation

Revise all subjects...

haiz.. where got time to cycle?

anyways...

21st March 2009

11am~12pm TO 4pm~5pm

ECP To Kent Ridge Park

Form of Transportation : Bicycles Only!

Interested parties contact me via Handphone/Tagboard/Facebook

Thanks.

Bye!

2009-02-12T03:45:00.000-08:00

Oh no! Look at the date...
12/2/09 ... tomorrow is the day where everyone give their gifts
well... me..? Sneaky..
ok... today... i am posting pictures!
i cant put it on facebook cause if my bro sees it...
haliluyah!
anyways... all photos were taken and edited by me!
haha... [laughing at "person"]
noob!
get away from me!
Enjoy the photos!

well.. the next post. i will be posting about my update.
stay tuned. PLEASE!
Hope you enjoyed the pictures!
Bye!

2009-01-29T03:44:00.000-08:00

Welcome! Since lots of peiple is asking me to post..
i Would! Sincerely...
okay... so...
hmm....
haha...
seriously!...
Chinese New Year!
okay... Pictures are on facebook soon...
via my bro
well... this year didn't talk much with my cousins and
well....
i think what people want to know..
is the red packets...
and the gambling stuff..
right?
Ang Pao = $1035
Gambling [Blackjack,Mahjong,Poker] = $-6
then...
1st day of school..
on the way to school met in a car accident...
est. cost of damage =$50
well.. the other car was a Toyota..
which meant that durable with very posh...
durable wins..
$190k merc got owned by $80k Toto toilet bowl...
this few days... getting the hang of the boredom in class...
realised that the most boring period was not chem or etc..
but Maths!
i find A maths easier than E maths...
while complex sums make me bored...
Hate Indices
Hate Fractions
Hate Hard to solve problems!
argh!
Maths! Maths! Maths! Be Easy!
oh ya...
today...
i found that i had 8 names..
Jeric
Lily
Juice
Nancy
Ammonia
Uncle Apple
Owner of the chick
Boy
haha...
the links to my facebook...
and my soon to come pictures...
well!
My Facebook Link is there
<---------
All pics are there...
Recent Pics - Sentosa!
Please do visit...
Add me if you want... I can always ignore...
Bye!

2009-01-23T06:29:00.000-08:00

well.. i have to write my blog!!!
ok... spectacular events...
yesterday i went for NYBC
New York Buisness Club aka
National Youth Buisness Competition
haha...
then there was one part when the speaker say
"How are you guys feeling?"
"Better than you!" said some stranger...
everyone burst into laughter! haha
hmm... okay... not very interesting eh?
oh ya.. then went back school with Joey Yu, Mr Wang, Zee Yee..
in mrs cheng car....
haha
then reach already i show off them my salesperson speech!
haha!
"Tired of dirty Floors?
Tired of soap that don't clean your floor?
Use Floor Clean!
The Only Enzymes filled solution that cleans your floor!"
okay... then today!
well... CNY....
then i was on duty! Alone! and no Faults! except some rough issues on the lights...
anyways... the lion dance was crap...
we practically can see the guy taking the oranges and peeling it...
haha... then later...
argued with XK they all if they want to go Ubi Techpark to eat...
but they all want to go mini mart so
i knew that they want to come back school and play Duel Masters or smth...
so saw Zee Yee and followed him to eat lunch..
came back from lunch...
went to hall and gave ben the key...
he pick locked the locked door!
then went for scouts...
then huge probs... not with me though...
i am always innocent...
then wanted to get excused to go for ava but didnt cause it ended...
before i asked...
then we had to do punishments for not answering what i thought...
A DAMN RHETORICAL QUESTION!
I am cycling to Sentosa tomorrow so...
interested parties tag my tagboard...dun worry i look at it abt 2 times an hour
so...
bike wise...
i think i am getting my XT brakes soon..
enough savings... got $450
and still have the $333.33 havent collect...
so....
stay tuned!
Bye!

2009-01-18T06:18:00.000-08:00

today was my aunt's birthday...
had fun... fun times with my nephew and niece!
haha... so cute! then went to chinatown and was squeezed to death..
i think my niece and nephew must have almost suffocated...
not saying that i am lousy at taking care of them...
then my cousin wanted to come my house and play basketball...
so we played... then i scored majority of 3-pointers and side shots...
i didn't know i was so good! haha...
then he played with other guys while i play some free throws myself...
after that.. i re-feeled the condo life...
after a "tired" day of "work" you get to the basketball court and shoot some balls
then head to a group of guys and ask if you can join in..
then head to the mini-mart and buy a bottle of drink!
fancy a swimming pool?
jump in the pool then! then soak yourself in the jacuzzi then you can head to the sauna!
during all the activities you can talk to the fellow residents!
wow!
well...
this is what i do when i was P3~P5...
my condo life...
well... now... my life is called the hectic life...
Mon - Fri homework... study...
Sat = Cruise/Club/Cycling
Sun = Tuition/Home/School
haiz...
where's the cycling spirit in me? help!
i have not cycled for 1 week!
how does kingsley get the effort to cycle at night...
so tired already... still can chiong all the way to CV...
This is great... i am seeing more people tagging! but because i tagged them/link them first...
anyways... its improvement!
Bye!

2009-01-16T06:30:00.000-08:00

well... just before this i made a complain to Pizza Hut..
haha... so fun! "letter writing"..
Report some more!
anyways... today... was okay..
erm... shall bring out some topics..
oh... went for scouts...
okay la... eddy like totally new person?
although he tekan ppl when i went off...
haha.. then went ava...
so as usual... with someone more "senior" then me...
i get bossed around... as if thats cool..
you good la!
anyways... tomorrow going to the volvo ocean race...
hopefully can meet yang rong and yong xin and fellow ex-tao nan-nites/scouts
oh ya... went to see the class blog... then added all the links possible...
even mine... haha
erm... should be nothing to say?
oh ya!
my teddy bears went to shower...
literally!
he's sleeping with me tomorrow night... he is spending his time in the hotel...
in the kitchen where "clothes" are hung...
Bye!

2009-01-15T04:55:00.000-08:00

Tadaa! This is my 2 model model cars!
Est. Cost = $150
Well used my bro's Canon 50D DSLR....
then had a hard time converting CR2 to JPG...
haiz... what to do...
This post should be about the pics only...
so erm... tell me how good they are?
btw. Manual Focus and no photoshop editing...
Comment! And Bye!

2009-01-12T03:52:00.000-08:00

おはようございます
which i have said earlier today...
okay... so today... i feel that i am getting the hang of not being bored..
erm... solution?
nothing!
well... whats the main point i want to share?
oh.... well today i made an effort to greet everyone...
so anyone i know...
"おはようございます" to think of it... i think i irritated some...
but i don't know what to do to entertain the crowd...
so making the greetings is always the first right?
after that... actually wanted to help the people buying the files to bring it to school...
but thanks to someone... that didn't tell me her no. and that i can't contact her...
i couldn't help....
okay... so erm... well... hmm...
i can see that more people are tagging or at least visiting...
i feel that we 3C should have a blog by now...
but i also think that it's a little early...
eh?
today went to give ms yap my reading and writing portfolio to be an "average"
model file...
and asked her to past ms. siti the present we gave her which i wrapped "nicely"
haiz...
i am so lousy at arts & craft...
today i told my mother about some school issues... then
realise that most people i know are even more rude than me...
just want to add...
isn't it time to put all your effort down for the last battle?
i mean everything is being calculated in the "o" levels...
my friend's L1R4 is only 20...
but he has 3 for ENG and 5 for maths so he still can go poly...
and that he is also very good in bowling...
sadly... no one cycles...
why cant i be fated to meet someone of my kind?
well.. most of them are close but not all...
some are too irritating...
some are a little empty...
but anyways...
pls continue visiting my blog!
Bye!

2009-01-06T01:28:00.000-08:00

Okay... today wasn't bad...

somehow because i have 2 free periods...

sort of?

cause i don't take bio so i have free lessons...

anyways... today was as usual... nobody seems to notice the previous blog post...

so no one really cared!

and also today though i may seem alright but all those were fake...

a haha here a haha there...

just for the...erm... fun?

so during recess i told mr wang and co. that how boring is class and my feelings...

somehow... something distracted me so i begin to unveil myself...

as in the optimistic, like maths, disturb johan stuff...

then i realised that the problem is that i am sitting with someone that i dont really talk to!

no offence... but i really cant talk to him... is like no topic...

when i talk to johan he understands everything...

he does stupid things which is entertainment to me...

while the one i am sitting with just ignores or talk back...

its too damn irritating!

i always do the irritating stuff...

thats how i am like! and its not natural for someone to irritate me!

i want to be the guy!

then again... i am a guy that needs constant attention!

not from the teachers cause it doesn't mean a good thing...

i was thinking just now that 3C should have their class blog already!

i think "colourful" should be the theme!

as ppl from vietnam, thailand, sri lanka...

we have almost the whole SouthEast Asia!

and as the temporary monitor... i feel i should be the one starting it..

but i somehow just don't have the guts to face the class and say

"okay peeps... i want to start a blog and the url is .... ...."

in front of ppl that dont really know me well...

i feel that school is all that i talk...

which somehow just cannot be happening...

ok... let me tell you what...

i shall...

erm...

thinking abt that...

does being in the best class requires me to be like that?

i feel that i am a nerd!

dont look like one but act like one...

i mean... going down the stairs...

all 3C...

going home from school...

all 3C...

you call this unity?

i call this hopeless and unfriendly...

or just maybe i am such an ass that everyone is so happy that JT is gone!

so no one really care?

is this even worth appealing into?

go to my dream class.

lose all my buds.

being bored to death in class.

Learning fun does not apply.

this is what i am suppose to face?

i made the wrong decision then.

can Blogger pls put more colours...

thanks...

everyday i see my wife...

posing there with no other intention..

i just want to ride her hard!

but just don't have the energy to...

can't you spare me some time?

all i want is you to be healthy!

pretty and bling everywhere!

erm... it sounds wrong... wife as in my bike...

if not you guys think that its some female...

but anyways... no one really read this stuff right?

i think that blogging is just to release how i feel solely to the internet...

i can just copy and paste from my notepad or microsoft word and just paste it here...

no one will really care! so do i...

this are just what i think...

posting of a timeline...

and this post would be the first few...

i dont really think there's anymore to write about..

so...

A normal Bye...

2009-01-05T02:54:00.000-08:00

Argh!!! i am not myself these few days...

dont think anyone will realise... cause everyone loves the quiet me...

They said blogging your mind out could release some tension so...

dont expect colourful fonts cause i am just not in to it today...

today... was what i thought totally tiring...

Physics lesson was okay but the sums are mindblasting...

then there was A Maths...

i was thinking that i might not be able to cope for pure sciences...

last night i was almost up the whole night thinking...

i felt scared and lost...

abt the class...

i am so used to hyped up people i cant really pay attention when its too serious...

i need to entertain myself but i ran out of jokes....

nothing is fun to me already...

pls help me...

i cant stay like that for long...

soon i might break down...

this kind of work just stumped me...

btw sorry for the skipping here and there...

i reached home at 5.15...

started homework at 5.30

completed it at 6.30!

and only a maths worksheet!

my god!

am i turning dumb or am i really dumb?

i have not ever encountered sums this difficult!

though i know that there is a huge jump from sec 2 to sec 3..

but... argh! i dont know...

maybe i might cope with it later?

i just wanna excel this 2 years!

just tell me what to do!

bring life to the class!

i am regretting a little that i entered 3C...

3D is so much more hype-d...

no one really talks...

those that i talk real well or at least have topics to talk are so far away...

why? am i suppose to sustain this much peer pressure?

my life is getting worst...

it started with me making fun of my best friend..

so he got fed up and left me...

all my best friends left me after p6...

then my PSLE results was below average and very under expectations..

posted to this shit school which i still hate...

then got posted to scouts which happens to be a uniform group and has camps

which i hate...

all this is fate?

well screw you!

then now sec 3!

come to the best class...

being so arrogant...

i have got the title and i think i dont have the ability..

dumbass... i just want the fame!

argh!

so is this my fault?

fate?

shit?

shit it is!

what bafoons is this!

argh...

i dont know what/who can help me now...

just volunteer pls!

The Most Hesitant Bye!

2009-01-02T05:13:00.000-08:00

Helllooooooo!

First of all....

A Happy New Year Ahead To All!

Today was the first day of school...

firstly, when i was on the way to school...

i was quite nervous...

haha...

then i saw this array of people but

i want to meet people that i know so something just told me

to head to the General Office where the new PA system is...

Though no more space for us to loiter...

its a new system!

I am not very sure whether its a misunderstanding or not...

Mr Fahmy said he will be my form teacher but he isn't...

just my A Maths / E Maths Teacher....

anyways... A + E Maths + Form? = 24hrs seeing him?

good thing that wasn't true...

my form teacher was Mr Ibrahim!

Some stylo guy with an iPhone 3G and a HTC Diamond...

and he is some sort like Mr M...

so fits me well!

there are some transfer ppl..

but i didnt talk to them...

oh ya! some tao nan nite graduated last year...

is in my school!

and he lives in the same condo as me..

we used to play together but not now...

just great! Tao Nan is still the Best!

erm... nothing else?

tomorrow i will post about my hopes and goals?

so stay tuned! if you do...

Bye!